Hard working or hardly working ?

I can't ...I literally can't do this shit anymore 

I go crazy cos of work, cos of all my way of living and yes, now, I am complaining 

I wake up at 5.30AM and I'm home late in the evening, sometimes at 23PM and is it called life? I know and I do understand that my situation is not the worst, but how can I diversify my activities if all I want is some rest. Not going out and not even meeting with friends (I even don't have time to), but what about self-development? Am I developing in a way I could go without sleeping ? 

Yesterday evening my nerves were at the edge and I turned crazy so sang stupid songs, put on a wrap and a snapback and was a silly pop-star performing on my bed. 

And I don't go to Stockholm in December cos of ..guess what ?? Cos of work and university.

Fuck this shit